I didn’t know how I would start in this topic, I have many key points to touch on but my beginning is kinda off. I wrote this so that I may remember what God spoke and before the Lord, you should know it is worth it to document what you hear is being said by The Spirit of God.
A few weeks back, I had purposed to withdraw myself from “my life.” This is now becoming a custom. Every October of the year, I have to look for a way to just go far off from my home to seek after God, not that I can not hear Him in my house, rather I seek to grow intimately with Him and to be acquitted with His blessed Spirit in a quieter and more serene place unlike my home.
For this reason, I do not seek any appraisal from any man for sharing this. I only seek that His name to be praised even the more for sacred times as such.
My date with God was for three days, An Esther’s kinda fast Read Esther 4:15-17. She called for this fast that she may find favor before the king on behalf of her people who were to be killed because of the command Haman gave out.
To be honest, I didn’t have any huge decision I was to make as Esther concerning her people but I just wanted to sit at God’s presence as I hear what His heart and mind echos out.
I packed my bags from Wednesday to leave early Thursday morning only to be delayed till a Friday morning Journey. I entered the crowded country bus station and manouvered to get a seat that was the only one remaining and off we took.
Now, I’ve been having occurences where my head ached when I go to new places and this has occurred several times – this is not the usual head ache that you would encounter normally. This has been a battle I’ve been facing in my Spirit. Many books have talked about Spiritual attacks and how to overcome them. You can look some of them in the internet. I never focused much on reading many myself but I choose to dwell on the weapons of spiritual warfare as compared to the attacks as I am well aware of some if not most of them. (I say this because many people go through spiritual battles and they dont understand what they face)
(started at 4pm when I checked in the centre)
I arrived at a good time and that is when I started my devotion. In my mind, I kept praying that the preacher who will preach that evening would be gentle just as a teacher would but God had ordained an evangelist for the evening’s sermon. He was as radical as an american black preacher you know. I did not have the strength to keep on shouting Amen! To His word but my spirit listened quietly.
This day I remember was a day to pray for others as the Spirit of The Lord gave me ability. I recall waking up at 6:42am and just going before the Lord until 12pm. This is something I call friendship.
Oh! How I want to remain before Him and continually abide in His shelter. My friends! This is the most valuable thing God can grant. The fragnance of prayers is beautiful before Him.
My day ended with a sermon from yet another Teacher of The word. This time, The preacher was gentle. The sermons have to this day kept me going.
Before I write concerning Day 2, I would like to share my insight concerning prayer. This is what I learned. I found it pretty hard staying prayerful most nights or waking up on the wee hours to pray but one thing The Lord richly graced me with was His presence all throughout the day. I learned that I was not called to watch during the night hours but during the morning and some times during the early hours of the night. Ask The Holy spirit to guide you in the time that is suitable for you that you may not tire your body. Also, if The spirit of The Lord wakes you up at a time that is unusual heed to His voice and wake up and pray on whatever area He presents.
(A day of listening)
I woke up at 6am sharp and I hurriedly brushed my teeth in order that I may keep time to go before God in praise. I remember having nothing that I prayed specifically for. I was in total surrender seated to hear God. He never spoke, my hope was upon His word, I waited.
I recall pacing up and down in the garden area when this phrase came to my mind, “look at the birds in the sky.” I began searching where in the book of Matthew Jesus spoke this words and why.
Matthew 6:26 KJV
Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they?
I’ve had many days when I was worried sick of what to expect, money and more money issues. This verse gave me hope and assurance on all the 101 problems and expectations I still have.
My spirit became encouraged to seek to hear His voice concerning more. His Spirit gave me utterance this day to bless Him for what He had done.
(A day of Praise)
My day started out with aches I can not expresss in my stomach, I felt very nauseous. Very weak. Dizzy. (I know medically speaking that I had subjected my body in anguish as I lacked water or the strength needful) I bless The Lord again who sustains not only my spirit but this dead body we all have. (I came to know later when i got home that i had had food poisoning, this was the food i ate before getting to the prayer centre)
The trials never ceased there, right after I prayed I went straight to bed. My sleep was then again turmoiled with sins I had arrogantly committed before I was firm in faith. I woke up at 2am deeply distressed with this dream. Previously, when I was in communion with my Lord, I remember asking Him to speak in whatever way He can, that this night won’t be like the others but He must reveal Himself to me. This quickly reminded me of who God is in my life, my saviour. The song, “I am more than a conqueror through Christ who loves me, my Lord!” Kept on playing in the back of my mind. I believe God was reminding me of His place in my salvation and that He is still working even though silent sometimes.
With all this, I woke up with praise and glorified Him for His love and the blood that was shed on my behalf for my purity and sanctification.
Some of the scriptures God put in my heart during this time were:
- Isaiah 43
- Matthew 6:25-34
A Book that I was led in reading was:
- Becoming a prayer warrior by Elizabeth Alves
This has been by far my hardest fast, I’ve had experiences within my body that have never ever been before but with this said, I thank The good Lord for His faithfulness.