Daily Christian Struggles

The devil tried to fight me today morning, he woke me up from a disturbing dream and tried filling my mind with pornographic images from the nightmare I had just woken up from. Science teaches us that humans get horny In the morning, the truth of this matter, I don’t know. With this in mind, I knew his plot of corrupting me.

All what I remember was me being tired to wake up or pray but I recalled The full armor that Apostle Paul spoke of in Ephesians. I recall mumbling words in my heart, I had to be quick. The sword of the spirit which is The Word of God was displayed in my mind and many verses came to memory, this you know is The HolySpirit’s doing, and indeed he departed with his lies and God rested my disturbed sleep with serenity and assurance, I woke to recall this later but found it necessary to document it.

My fellow believers in Christ, it is only God who created us. Science doesn’t define the depths of how God worked in us to make us who we are. The schemes of the king of lies have been squandered. You are a workmanship of God. Try believing this would you. Purify your heart of double mindedness that creeps so close in your midst.

The thoughts of what if came to my mind at that time and I thought of how I would be guilty and proud before asking God to forgive me for the sin He warned me about.

Masturbation is sinful, there is no other way to cover it.

When the devil brings you fire quench your disturbed spirit with Holy water, which is only in God’s presence. Now, I don’t mean of the Catholic holy water, I talk about the water that Christ spoke of when he was with the Samaritan woman, the water He also spoke about in the book of Isaiah. The water which you drink and thirst no more, which can quench the fiery darts of the enemy.

It’s not that simple, someone can only understand what I say when they are faced with adversity. There’s only hope when you get out of “your zone”.

How precious is the word of God, how wonderful will it be when we fully grasp the truths of what Jesus taught through His disciples. His word can rebuke, reproach, admonish and encourage us. We can mount up with wings like eagles.

There’s no limit of this privilege we received from God.

Finally my friends, His word is active sharper than any two edged sword. Develop a habit of reading this book and you’ll understand why you need to apply the teaching in your daily lives and prayers.

Patricia Green


Faith and Works

I am currently doing a study on The book of James, we know that James from start till end of the book was quite practical in his teachings. While I read through James chapter 1, I stumbled upon this personal question on my study lesson, it goes like this.. Pray to be quick to hear what God is saying to you through this study about Faith and works

Allow me to share what James 1:22-25 says,
[22]But be ye doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving your own selves.
[23]For if any be a hearer of the word, and not a doer, he is like unto a man beholding his natural face in a glass:
[24]For he beholdeth himself, and goeth his way, and straightway forgetteth what manner of man he was.
[25]But whoso looketh into the perfect law of liberty, and continueth therein, he being not a forgetful hearer, but a doer of the work, this man shall be blessed in his deed.

It really is simple to read, I got myself meditating upon it for a couple minutes and immediately forgot about it. The next morning came and just to let you know The Spirit of God is active and hears and works to fulfill what is in line with the purpose of God in refining us..

I wronged my mom, I lashed out on her with harsh words. In less than five minutes, my dad calls me to their room. I went there so confident knowing I was the one wronged. He was straight forward and asked me why I did what I did and I, head up said my mom was acting up etc. Now at this point, I began wondering why I was called seeing that my dad can tell my mom approached me wrongly but as a parent that he was, I could tell that He was neutral and did not want to lean on any side but wanted to clarify my position as a daughter and for my mom as a mother.

He struck me with just a word, and what He said was very direct and at that particular time he got my attention. So, my dad knew and still knows nothing of me studying on The book of James. What he mentioned quickly brought me back to the personal question I was pondering on the previous night.

Now, this was God telling me to weigh my faith and my works. Because, I was not appreciative of what my mom does for me countless times regardless of the small misunderstandings we have. I overlooked all that and My heart was just full and out of it my mouth spoke out of anger. My works were so different to my faith. What I believed was totally not in line with God’s word. My action was contrary.

Being quick, I realized I was wrong, I thank God for His Spirit guided me then to know and also to repent, to ask my mom to forgive me and to love my dad even more for confronting me.

Let what you profess in Christ be so in physical, dont take the Law and leave the actions aside. Learn to ask yourself questions and ask God to purge you and to reveal areas you need to work on for His glory


Be slow to speak, slow to anger, ask God for wisdom if you need to answer back to someone, obey and respect your parents, never under estimate the power of God at work in you. Let your Faith be justified with your Work.

Even If You Labor “for Nought”

Discouragement comes in many forms. So our weapons must be varied.

Before I accepted the call to become a pastor 33 years ago, my father wrote me a discouraging letter — a kind of warning about the pastorate. He gave me a long list of the discouragements, pitfalls, and hardships of pastoral ministry. Later, when I accepted the call, he rejoiced with me and said that the letter was not meant to stop me, but to prove the reality of my call. If I could move forward, he said, after reading this bleak picture, I must be called.

I have just spent half an hour looking for that letter in my files and journals. I can’t find it. But I did a computer search of 25 years of journals with the words “letter from.” There were dozens of results, and the effect on me was tears and thankfulness.

Tears because page after page of “letter from” results were letters of criticism. I had mercifully forgotten almost all of them. But to have them called up like that brought back the countless battles with discouragement. And I sit here thankful that I didn’t quit.

The Pangs of Unappreciated Labor

“Faithful, Christ-dependent labor is pleasing to the Lord.”

One of the pitfalls my father mentioned in his letter of “warning” was the life-quenching discouragement that comes from extended periods of apparent fruitlessness. My father traveled from church to church and dealt with thousands of pastors. He told me about how close so many of them were to throwing in the towel, oppressed by the lifelessness of their people and their own sense of hopelessness.

This is a threat not only to pastors, but to all believers. All of us can become oppressed that our work is of no value. Any one of us can be crushed by the feeling that others do not approve of how we do our work. Who has never felt the pang that he has labored in vain and spent his strength for nothing? When discouragement comes in this form, we need a special weapon to fight the fight of faith.

Look Always to the Lord

In an effort to refresh my spirit in my early days of pastoral ministry, I turned to a great old book by Charles Bridges and found a weapon suited for such a battle. Bridges said,

Our recompense is measured not according to “our success” but “our labor” and, as with our blessed Master, vouchsafed even in the failure of our ministration.

Then, for support, he cited this great text from the prophet Isaiah, who was sent to preach to people whom God knew would not repent (Isaiah 6:9).

I have labored in vain; I have spent my strength for nothing and vanity; yet surely my right is with the Lord, and my recompense with my God. (Isaiah 49:4)

That verse pierced my heart like a shot of spiritual adrenaline. I imagined a large-hearted, gentle, steady old pastor serving in a small church in the country. He was worn and weary and at the end of his life. He had been faithful for three decades through every crisis, never succumbing to the temptation to quit.

When a young replacement asked him how he had the endurance and strength of soul to keep on in the ministry all those years, he said, “The Lord measures the faithfulness of our labor, not our success. I look always to the Lord and not to man.”

As I took this weapon into my hand in those early days in the ministry, there were times when it shone so brightly I could scarcely contain my joy. I thought: What a vision! What a hope! To come to the end of my life after thirty years of pastoral labors and be able to say (gray-headed and full of joy), “My right is with the Lord, and my recompense with my God.”

On This Labor Day

As you ponder your life’s labor on this Labor Day, don’t be undone by the thought that you have labored in vain. If you must, say with Isaiah, “I have labored in vain, I have spent my strength for nothing and vanity.” But then, with great boldness, in defiance of all of Satan’s attacks, speak the rest of the verse: “yet surely my right is with the Lord, and my recompense with my God” (Isaiah 49:4).

“The Lord measures the faithfulness of our labor, not our success.”

Then resolve with faith in God’s power (2 Thessalonians 1:11) to live and labor for the rest of your life in the hope that faithful, Christ-dependent labor is pleasing to the Lord. “Our recompense is measured not according to ‘our success’ but ‘our labor.’”

My chapter as pastor is over. And I am deeply thankful that I wielded this weapon against the temptations to quit. Now there are new battles to be fought. New discouragements to be withstood. Join me in this warfare, whatever your age. Be a people strong in the Scriptures, never flagging in zeal, fervent in spirit, serving the Lord (Romans 12:11) — no matter what!

Servanthood in your labor

John Piper

I am an Oak of righteousness

This topic of course as read is from the book of Isaiah 61:3 The verse

I’ll be referencing alot, I’m actually not used to talking about the study I’ve been doing in the bible but I feel moved to.

So, let’s get started..

Firstly, I’ll be using both NKJV and NIV as I go through the scriptures.

Recently, my friend and I had this in mind of doing a study and the most amazing part is that we both had Isaiah 61 on our minds. God had already given her revelation to that chapter specifically to speak to at her line of ministry back in church with the high school team she’s working with.

Now, she shared that we can go through Isaiah 61 again and we’ll share what we’ve understood and the insights we’ve gotten from it. I’ve been searching out this chapter from yesterday till today night. It has been crazy, as I literally kept thinking of what I’ll share come tomorrow when we get to talk.

These are some of the insights God put in my heart to share; the message is for any one willing to hear The Word.

As I said earlier, I’m not the best writer there is. I’m new to all this in text.

Isaiah 61:3 (NIV), “that they may be called oaks of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he may be glorified.”

I’ll just write concerning this part of the verse because that’s where I was convicted more by The Spirit of God to study on.

My notes on this is more of a ‘paragraphed prayer’, I really had no idea how I’ll be able to display it in a readable form here. My notes are very personal because I speak The Word in my life literally. I’ll try deliver in the simplest way I can.

Right after I finished reading vs3 of Isaiah 61, Jeremiah 17:8 came to mind. It says “Blessed is the man who trusts in The Lord, whose confidence is in Him. He will be like a tree planted by the waters, who spreads out his roots by the stream. He does not fear when heat comes, his leaves are always green. He is not anxious when drought comes, he never fails to bear fruits”

We know that in King James Bible, The oak is referred to as The tree of Righteousness. Here, I’ve just put a link that can help someone to get more insight on what I biblically understood on the term Oak. Biblical definition of Oak – A strong tree of righteousness

We also know that God is the one who planted this seed of righteousness in us. He is the one who did the planting, right? So before it being a tree, it’s a seed. It germinates. It’s in a process of being a tree.

Therefore, when we proclaim what God has promised that indeed Lord, I am a tree (symbolism) planted by the waters (holy spirit), I spread out my roots in your stream (holy spirit). I do not fear when heat (trials/tests) come. My leaves (living) are always green. I will not be anxious when the year of drought (dry spells) comes. Because I bear fruit (You will know them by their fruit). Then we are declaring that indeed He planted a righteous seed in us and we are strong not feeble, garmented of praise, oiled with gladness, consoled when mourning and given beauty for ashes. Praise God! I am overwhelmed with joy knowing that God has got me figured 100% and by this we can be called Trees/Oaks of righteousness to glorify Him who plants this seed before we were born.

Do not listen to any one saying any opposite of this, because truly you are an oak of righteousness. God created all of us. He wants the best for you and me. He wants us all to be His. That’s why He says, We are His children. We are in The Lord’s side. We will only believe His report for us. When He says, you are healed. Believe it. Walk it. Talk it.

The seed planted in you is active, He says in His Word that “The prayer of a righteous man is effective

Be blessed.

Inspired by The blessed Holy Ghost and a good best friend, Mckayla.


I’ve withdrawn myself in the past 3 days and during that period, I’ve been searching myself out and really trying to hear God’s voice and when I say I’ve tried Im honest about it. We know that in the bible God said that His sheep know His voice and they follow Him. I was one lost sheep the past week.

I’ve heard many voices and that’s caused me to forget how my dad (God) speaks. I’ve been living in some kind of delusion. Thinking, I’m still working out my salvation with fear and trembling but I’m not praying as much or reading God’s word as I should have. Posting daily scriptures as if I’ve given so much thought to the verse myself.

Knowing Him is more than simply quoting scripture and going to church. It’s actually living the Word as life unfolds day to day.

Sometimes, the routine gets so normal that I forget what being before God’s presence is like. This has led me to being too emotional before God. Something I’ve been taught by my biological dad is to go before God with a mind that’s plugged fully not partially, because if you are partially plugged you will easily be carried away by emotions, distractions and many other feelings and things, this will cost you.

Remember, God is not moved by tears but by faith. What you will do after the prayer or after hearing His word will matter more than the posts or tears shed at the end of the day

In the few days, I got really personal with myself, thought of my being and reinstated the blessed Spirit in His holy seat of control in my life. My biological dad without knowing has been every morning calling me in and teaching me, reproving me and in practical ways leading me from this comfort zone I was in to where God wants me to be. Many times I’ve been a bad student and wishing he finishes fast but this only showed that I was guilty of something and needed to let God work in me.

In the third day, I let God have his way. I prayed for an assurance that God through His Spirit, continue purging and refining me in a way I can not run away and say its too much or too soft to doubt His work.

Before all this, I could not see in God’s view. I couldn’t read the Bible or even have time to talk with my heavenly father. Just because I had already fattened my heart with all kinds of envy, wrong doctrines, malice, slander all what God hates; Unknowingly.

I bless God for His Spirit, He convicted me so mightily. He showed me what problem I had within. Helped me answer sincere questions that I had in my heart.

Some of the questions I drafted in this time were ;

  • Do I have a disputed throne? I frankly answered no to this because deep in my heart I know that God is the only one I’ve let seat in my heart and there is nothing that can come in and cause dispute apart from me. I am one with Him therefore that was that.
  • Am I divided inside? To be frank I was, I had set God apart from my life. I was living my own kind of salvation. I told God this and this burden was lifted.
  • Do I have idols that I need cast out? Yes I do, social media, peer influence in friends. I was waking up checking my phone, calling up friends who didn’t give me the solace I needed. I was led in some kind of dark room where I couldn’t see anyone but followed the voice of the friends I had. This is being rearranged now and others are being cut off.
  • Is there anything else apart from the spirit of God ruling in me? When I came to this question, I wrote right next to it. God help me answer this with all honesty. I took the whole day before I came back to answer this. My answer was a straight No. Because if i had a disputed throne/heart then definitely the answer to this would be a yes.

With all this said, I have alot of work to do with God. The walk is narrow and it gets narrower every day when you let God speak with you and through you. He will lead you besides still waters and you will rejoice when all this trails come your way.

You learn. You grow. You mature. You overcome.

God bless you.

God, you deal with it

Have you ever seen how a child reacts when given a challenging task? For example, if he’s thirsty and really needs water and in that he’s given a bottle that’s been tightly closed; he quickly tosses it back to dad or mum to open it for him. Right?

So, just like a child I am learning how to toss my troubles to God.

I was just having this crazy imagination of what if my enemy came up so close to me and tried to intimidate me. One thing i know for sure, my anger would really escalate. But, God just reminded me that He’s love is greater and if i act out in anger then i would not really be representing him.

A strategy that i will use is take the hand of my enemy, with all the pain and bring him to Jesus to deal with him not torture him because that’s what i would do but love on him and help me forgive him/her.

Patricia Green


What about Jesus Christ?

Can I just speak about Jesus for a couple minutes, I don’t know why it’s hard for a person in my age bracket to just acknowledge who God is anywhere. Is it really that hard? or Are you just afraid of what society will think of you?

In this day and time, I bless God because there has been a separation and a generation where God has put in the hearts a call(burden) to speak out boldly of His Gospel.

One of the many things God has really pressed on in my heart and spirit is service. It’s been hard on my part thinking on where he wants me to serve. Funny enough, earlier as I was meditating on Gods will; a friend shared a sermon which has touched my heart and spoken depths to me on the theme service.(I’ll link it below) 


A question that has been lingering in my mind since I finished hearing the sermon was; 

Am I really ready to be an aid and servant? Many times I just want to be recognized for the gifting I have truth be said and It involves less of God and more of what I am able to do. Sometimes I imagine if I was leading or if I was doing this or that before a large number of people. (leading has a lot of work) Crazy, that’s all what I thought. But, after I watched this sermon; the holy spirit convicted me and I was guilty of the selfish ambition and gains that I wanted. God was just telling me simply that it’s not about me or the gift but of the others he’s sent me to reach out to.

A question I’ve heard people ask is; If not me, who else? But they don’t phrase it right it’s rather if not me then most definitely it will be someone else. God is not a respecter of persons. If he’s assigned you and you say no then he’ll bring up someone else who’ll do that same task you couldn’t do.

My friend, narrow your identity in God and stop looking at things from your tiny illusion and perspective. It’s hard to really just step out. Many are the plans and desires of our heart and yes, God is the executor but he’ll not come down from heaven and tell you, get up get going.. It’s you to take that step of faith and get up. When you finally realize who you are in God. You’ll not care of what the world thinks. You’re not of this world anyway. But you’ll care about the lives God has put on your heart to reach out to. You’ll care about the gospel and the truths it speaks to your very lives and others. Its then that you realize that being a servant, an aid is the most important thing you have. It’s there that you learn and grow, It’s there that you discover your true potential, it’s there that you are taken deeper in knowledge and understanding of God, My Father. My daddy. And nothing will take this revelation from you. Nothing.

I want to live what I speak in Christ, it’s hard? Many say this, I’m sorry but that’s the devil trying to confuse you. God only said it’s not going to be easy NOTE he did not say hard. When you are thriving in your spirit, the devil hates it. He wouldn’t want to see you prosper in the things of God. That’s where you stand up and your faith in God and the word of God really have to take its course and you declare that indeed man cannot live by bread alone but by every word spoken from the mouth of God. That’s where you declare, the devil is a liar and his words are null and void. That’s where you declare that you are a child of the most high, no demon in hell or man on earth can say anything against you because God is with you and he has the final say over you.

It’s really simple, friend. It’s believing. It’s walking in the light you have been called to. Its commanding your steps day by day in Christ and saying there’s no greater than he who is in me.

I desire God, I am no perfect than any of you. But my greatest desire is to grow and be rooted so deep in God that no wind can move me. 

We need to wake up from this dillusion of I am here, I have to do my things, God is not coming soon, I can plan my things and oh, I still have time to do all sorts of my bucket list. 

It’s a call for repentance, we are not in a good time. We need to submit, surrender and remember God has given you a choice to live right.

God bless you.